Wednesday, July 04, 2007 . 2:03 PM

I had the weirdest dream last night. I can't remember the details, but I remembered that something happened to make me really sad and I started weeping. I was crying so hard that I woke myself up with it to find me crying in real life.

That wasn't the first time it happened - not that it happened that frequently. But it was the first time it happened when I was feeling truly upset about something and I refused to let myself cry in real life. I guess the repression was what lead to the eruption.

And the million-dollar question is, what was I upset about?

The soul-searching trip to Taiwan has been postponed indefinitely.

Yep, you heard me right. Postponed.

After all the research and planning and looking forward, I still am unable to realize my one wish this year. Am I pissed off? Of course I'm pissed!

The fact is: if I go Taiwan as planned, I won't have money for school fees.

So between school fees and Taiwan, practicality ruled.

I hate being practical. I hate reality. It sucks. 2007 thus far sucks. I'm penniless, jobless and in debt. Oh, of course, I still haven't met the love of my life yet.

Yes, 2007 definitely sucks.