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Sunday, January 07, 2007 . 12:42 AM

I guess it's not always possible to be a nice person no matter how much you want to be one.

If I am completely honest with myself, I really don't like the person I had been the past few months. I'm confused, lost and darned scared of feeling that way. I tried to bury those feelings so I don't have to face them, but pretending they don't exist didn't make them go away.

Perhaps it is time to admit to myself that I hate them. I really hate them both. One for being foolishly faithful and the other for not being faithful enough.

Perhaps it is time to admit that, no matter how hard I try, feelings can't be created. It can be developed, but it has to stem from something, a seed of attraction at least.

I am sorry, truly sorry for feeling the way I feel and for being the stubborn, selfish person that I am.

I can't say sorry enough. Sorry. So sorry.

figuratively speaking

name: alexis
age: feel older younger than i really am
starsign: scorpio
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samsung ultra edition 9.9 in red
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lose weight...
at least 2kg more
globe-trot
contentment

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