Wednesday, November 08, 2006 . 2:24 AM
----------------------------------------------------Original post on Nov 07.
I knew it, I just knew it. After the excitement of my birthday, reality dropped in my lap.
Exams in 2 days' time!
I only studied 2 chapters so far. I'm so dead. I look at the notes and immediately, I feel sleepy. How the hell am I ever going to finish studying? Right now, all I'm doing is reading through them, I haven't even attempted committing them to memory. Somehow, that seems to be an impossibility.
What the heck, I'm going to have to smoke my way through the damn paper when the time comes. Seriously, who the hell has time to study? At least, I hope none of them!
Exams matters aside, I am constantly puzzled by why couples nowadays seem to be talking about break-up as casually as if they were discussing the weather. No, I'm not talking about you. I'm talking about other people. People who probably aren't reading my blog.
Yeah, someone asked me recently if breaking up is the solution to their problems. The charge is lack of interest in the relationship. But I look at the couple, they're so young, barely into their mid-20s and have a long, long, long way to go.
Call me cynical, but I never thought they were going to end up together. I have no idea where or when the idea was drilled into me. If you're dating a guy younger than 27, you can forget that it will lead anywhere.
Seriously, is that screwed up or what? I have this mentality that guys younger than that have no idea what they want in life, they have no direction and are still experimenting. I want to steer clear away from them lest I become a failed experiment.
Guys older than that are more settled and probably would have a better idea of what they want. Therefore, with their goals firmly in place, I would have a lower chance of crashing and burning. Not that the risk is obsolete, but it is minimized.
And this, people, is how I earn my reputation of having no sense of adventure, for not having the guts to take risks. It's true. I have so many stereotypes of people that I just can't break. I am trying, really. But as I've learned from Mr Augustine (yeah, that lecturer from SIM, he does teach some useful stuff), a person's beliefs are the hardest to change.
I keep wondering where I got that set of belief about younger men... I don't know, from my parents? Dad is younger than mom, although they're not romantic and don't go out anymore, at least I know they are still committed to each other.
Actually, reflecting on my background, I should be all for the older woman/younger guy thing! Strange... I'm weird.